Meaning of suicide dream?

Wow, I just had the most interesting dream. I was in Madison, WI with a lot of people from my hometown, and my dog lol. I went away from where everyone was going to be to play with my dog, and we were swimming. There was a huge swim area, and it was almost like Caribbean waters. There was also a waterfall type thing, but it was underground. I don't remember exactly why I jumped, but I did intend on killing myself I think; but it wasn't because I was so sad and depressed. I just did it because I simply made the choice to do so. I made a suicide pact with an old friend, and we jumped. After I "died", I could still communicate with people. I was still on Earth, and could see everything that was going on. My mom was so angry, but that's the only one I remember talking to. I tried to tell her it wasn't because my life was awful- it was because I had just been stupid enough to jump. I went to my own funeral, and there was a guy there who I have strong feelings for even though we have never dated or aren't even really friends (this is a whole other topic), and I didn't speak with him but tried to tell him in my mind how I truly felt. Then I starting dreaming about something else.. What was that dream supposed to mean?!